I don't know why, why I am sulking...I felt that I couldn't try to change people mind and their thinking.

I felt no one really could believe me, mostly my friends refrained from talking to me...My heart is so gloomy and so does my world. I told to someone special that I would change to be the better person and told him that I would help others when in needed.

I-I don't know what to say or try to prove to you, but somehow I felt so affectionate about something. I felt I really need to change my friends thoughts and even adults somehow.

Sometimes, people just don't know how fortunate they are. They do complained that their life is miserable, unwanted or deprive...Let me say what I feel. I felt that some of my friends has siblings but they don't know how to cherish them, they have a pet and they ignored it, they have such loving and caring parents and yet they are angry about it, they have good friends but yet they did not realize...

To me...I felt I am the opposite of what I have written. I felt a lack of communication between my father and everyday I would cry within my heart and thought - Please...Please make my Dad and I forever happy - I cried and cried...I had no siblings and prayed to God, and told him please let me have a best friend. I cried whenever I saw someone who has siblings, the pain is so crucial and excruciating. I told my mother I wanted a dog, but she was afraid and she denied it. I cried too...because she's not feeling well thus she denied it...I went to school, hoping someone would talk to me and make my life happier than ever, but all I knew was betrayal, disloyalty, and sometimes my friends would act childish...They would keep quiet and won't talk to me, and I felt so terrbily hurt.

I sulked and sulked, I wanted everything but What I really wanted was my parents to have good blessings...I love them so much. I remember once, there was a parent meeting session. My mother came, and one of my friends said, "Is that your grandmother? She looked old." I felt so hurt when I heard that. Everyday I would go straight home and brood my unhappiness...

I-I...I wanted everything to be good for everyone, I want people to understand who I really am and how I feel. I don't want to be such a rotten person...I want to help people, I - (Crying) - Want everybody out there to be understanding and reasonable.

-(Unable to continue)-

We must always love our parents no matter they scold us, nag at us or even punish us. We must be filial to our parents, and we must give them our warmest love regards towards them.

I love my parents although they don't understand me quite well. They would sometimes think that I would be those teenagers out there, 'on' their handphone media player loud and walk like a gangster.

Although I hate to be misjudged, I told them I wasn't that kind of child in their eyes. I respected myself and my own decision and I knew what was right for me. I am the only child of my parents and I couldn't let them disappointed because of me.

I had to do what is right for me and them. I want to change their life and make them proud. I love my parents so much and I can't afford to lose them. I will always cherish them, love them, care for them although sometimes I'm playful, but I still love them as always.

Thanks Mom and Dad...Love always, from your son...KahSheng...

In this world, many of us, would tend to do great things than what other people can imagine. We tend to find instant answers towards our questions but we do not seek the truth behind it. What am I saying?

You know youngsters? Youths, teenagers...and others? I felt that children or youths tends to rebel because they lacked of sercurity, faith, comfort and trust from the loved ones and friends. They felt that the world betrayed them, no one could trust them.

Adults always tend to argue with such small issues towards youths. Even if its accidental, adults find different attempts to find fault at youths. I felt this disturbing, and this could not go unjustified. Children and youths tend to hangout with gangsters and drop-outs because they knew even they are good, they still can't earn the faith of their parents or even teachers.

All students are born good, even the worst kind of all. Children tend to be bad are usually the cause of adults and not the children themselves. Adults keep scolding and does not comfort them for the child actions they had done. Saying those malicious words instead of saying pleasant comments, tends to make the children unhappy. Childrens are not at fault, but adults should take responsibilities on handling their children.

Gangsters are also kind hearted people, they also do felt hurt and pain. They are humans, like us. We should understand their feelings and not look down on them. We should look down on ourselves if we failed to bring them comfort. I know this because I once saw a drop-out helping an old lady. I felt touched, bring a sense of salutation towards that kid and wished to help him.

All children are good, adults also do go through childhood. We should know what is best for their child. Children turn bad because they lack of faith and trust from their parents and therefore, they felt neglected and thus taking the wrong path...

The World...

Where life form begins...The world of fascination...Nature...But...we did not appreciate what we have here...

A round planet, created for humans to live on. Lushed green fields, azure skies, exotic Islands, spectacular and magnificient view of the nature and mysterious places. This is what we have on earth. Technologies and industries, were built to enhance the needs of human beings. We failed to slow down ourselves, to see the wonderous nature around us, even right beside you...

Yes, the world. Terrorism, War, Fighting, Riots, Argument, disharmony...Why all this...? Can't we live in peace...what do we gain from all this...Bloodspilled...Sorrows...Heart-ache...Why...You might now be celebrating your birthday at your house...But out there...war is happening...bullets are flying across the battlefield...people are crying...loss of homes. Explosions, molotovs...and other sorts of weapons...are starting to rise, to destroy each other as mankind...why must all this happen...can't we just sit down and relax ourselves...? Must we reach until such circumstances where war are being started...why the sacrifices to the country when we know war is wrong...It doesn't determine who is the winner...but who is right...Why must we show them who is right...?

Even if we are right...How many people are being sacrifice for the country...Everywhere...sorrows and pains could be heard...streets, backalley...even homes...Can't we humans ourselves, stop from all this happenings...look around you...there may be poor and rich...we humans ourselves also have jealousy...anger...even if we fight with others...what do we gain back...our dignity...?

Think about the surrondings...does it enlighten you or is it too discomforting...try to close your eyes...think about what is happening...why must all this happen...can we ever resolve this conflict of pain...this war and terrorism...Did we tried to talk over the unhappiness over one views...or did we outcasted them...

Even right now as I continue my opinion...I can't take the sorrows...I'm trying to hold back my tears...especially for the old folks...their tears makes me cry....